I had a really great weekend getting new headshots taken. Evan Zimmerman, an Otterbein Alum, did an incredible job making my ugly mug look Broadway ready! I've gotten the proofs back and have made a couple selections for editing and once I get them back, I'll post some of them here. It had been three years since my last headshot session so it was definitely time to get new ones done. I'm really glad I went with Evan and MurphyMade. 

I spent most of the weekend outside as it was in the mid 60's and absolutely gorgeous. Saturday morning, Lauren and I made brunch before heading out to Central Park for a nice walk and really great conversation. Maddy FaceTimed us from Chicago and it was so good seeing her. She's doing really well and I'm so proud of everything she's doing! Lauren needed to run to Trader Joe's for a few things and that quickly died because the line for the checkout was wrapped all the way around the first floor. Needless to say we learned not to go to the big name groceries on the weekends. 

The office is crazy busy this week. Like I said the other day, we have so many EPA's this week, it wasn't uncommon that there were only two or three of us in the office while everyone else was off at sessions. I've been in a couple auditions this week and last. Two of them were calls for kids and really filled my soul when I watched them crush their auditions. I lost focus on the camera a couple of times because I was overjoyed to see them shine...luckily the camera was on a tripod and focused in on the kids. Those auditions reminded me just how important working with kids is to me. No matter where I end up, I know I'm supposed to teach and interact with children. The office had comp tickets for us this week to see Ring Twice For Miranda. It was an Off-Broadway play being produced by the Manhattan Theatre Club. Wasn't my favorite, to be honest, but it was a night of free theatre, so I'm not complaining. 

Of course when you're on a good streak and feeling great about things, a downer must be around the corner. For my own good, I cut ties with a very close friend back home in Indiana. To say I'm upset is an understatement, but I hope to take some time and just focus on me. And I hope he does the same as well. I'm a people pleaser and I never want to give up on friendships. I try hard to keep in contact with my friends and family but when the relationship apparently does more harm than good, it's time to let it go. I do believe that if he is meant to be part of my life again, then he will come back at some point. I'm angry, sad, hurt, confused and kind of relieved all at the same time. "I will be better for this" is the sentence that keeps playing in my head. I don't know if I believe that I will be better just yet, but time can help heal and bring about great change. I also ask for prayers and good vibes for the Buergler family. My great Uncle Joe Buergler lost his battle to cancer yesterday morning. He was 91 years old, lived a full life filled with family and friends. My grandfather passed almost two years ago now at 91. It was scary how much Uncle Joe and Pa's looked alike. May he rest in peace in Heaven with Pa's. 

My beautiful cousin Chessie and had a much needed and long awaited conversation last night about all kinds of things. We had played phone tag for the past couple of days and hadn't really talked too much since the beginning of the month. She's doing so so well as the music director at our church back home. We updated each other on our lives and what our next plans were. We got to talking about how much we love singing together. Chessie is an incredible pianist and we've done many weddings and masses together of the past few years. She's writing music all the time and working on getting some of her songs produced in the near future. I couldn't be more proud of her and the work she is doing to empower young girls through her own testament and through the word of God. I'm not the biggest catholic these days, to be honest. Being gay and being a practicing catholic kind of became a conflict of interest during my coming out process, but I always see God working through Chessie and believe wholeheartedly that she is going to make such a difference in the world with her music. She has in mine already. I couldn't help but post the picture of Chessie and I when we were around 5th and 6th grade. That was our family Christmas party and back then we hated having to perform in front of everyone. Nowadays I would do anything to sit by the piano and just sing with her for hours.